1. |
Doorway Ghost
03:29
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I think I’ve outgrown you
It only took a little while
It only took a little while
And I’m starting to feel sorry for you now
I hope you figure yourself out
I hope you figure yourself out
There’s nothing I can do to save you from yourself
standing in your doorway for far too long
There’s nothing I can do to convince you that it’s wrong.
My arms reached out in vain for far too long.
I understand you better now
Than I ever did before
Oh, Than I ever did before
You convinced yourself you like it like this
I’ll convince myself tonight
You’ve got the strength to make this right
There’s nothing I can do to save you from yourself
Praying for a change of heart for far too long
There’s nothing I can do to convince you that it’s wrong.
Believing we had the same eyes for far too long.
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2. |
Wait Until Morning
03:44
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Transparent and fragile—
I am glass in your arms.
Words of water spill from me
Like the releasing of the doves.
My armor does not hold
My weapons have all broken
In this new blue room
Few words are left unspoken.
Transparent and Fragile—
I am glass in your arms.
Like the bell that rings at Christmas
Like the bell that rings alarm.
I won’t paint you
In the red chaos of the others
You are the new pale blue
The dawn of a thousand summers.
Don’t let me forget who you are
When the past comes back to haunt me
If I lose myself in a winter’s moment
Just wait until morning.
Just wait until morning.
Transparent and Fragile—
An hour glass in your arms
Like a thousand moments wasted
On breathing life into a corpse
Transparent and Fragile—
A broken girl in your arms
I’ll weep from time to time
For the life I left behind
Don’t let me forget who you are
When the past comes back to haunt me
If I lose myself in a winter’s moment
Just wait until morning.
Just wait until morning.
I let the ghost back in again
I’m sorry I love you I’m sorry
I let the past touch me again
I love you I’m sorry I love you
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3. |
First to Cry
04:56
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Last night I almost drove home to you
But I don’t know where you’ve moved to
We were always here and then we weren’t
Am I the only one that’s still hurt
I go out every night
I’m no saint, I do this all the time
I lose a little on every try
I don’t know, I thought you’d be easier to find
Someone asked me if I was visiting ghosts
Or visiting friends
I’m not really sure
I just don’t want the feeling to end
Someone said something that made me
Bring you up again
I just keep coming back
To all the places we’ve been
I’m not ready to miss you
I’m gonna have to learn how to
If it weren’t for the wine I’d be up all night again
No one is ever wake at 4am
I’m not really scared I’m just grieving
It gets harder to accept you’re leaving
I go out every night,
I’m no saint, I know it isn’t right
I lose a little on every try
I don’t know, I thought you’d be easier to find
Someone asked me if I was visiting ghosts
Or visiting friends
I’m not really sure
I just don’t want this feeling to end
Someone said something that made me
Bring you up again
I’m doing the best I can
But I have so much of who I am
I’m not ready to get over you
I’m going to have to learn how to
I’ve never been good at goodbyes
I’m always the first to cry
You could destroy me
With just your eyes
I’m so weak when it comes to you
After everything we’ve been through
You took more pieces of me with you
Than anyone else
..
I’m always the first to cry..
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4. |
Pillar of Salt
04:11
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What is there left to say?
I can feel us both turning grey
—and I can’t console you more than this;
My heart is a pale fist,
No blood left and lifeless.
What is there left to say?
Maybe I should leave before I choose stay.
I should never have made a home out of this.
Oh, I’m packing my things and lying
Can’t you see how hard I’m trying.
I can hardly say it.
I can barely breathe.
I know that I’ll be different
Once you really leave.
I don’t handle things like this
All that well anymore.
Promise not to turn back
While you’re walking out the door.
Who am I going to be when you’re gone?
It was always in my nature to hold on.
I was so afraid of it ending like this.
Please remember who you are,
Please don’t lose your heart.
I can hardly say it.
I can barely breathe.
I hate that I’ll be different
Once you really leave.
I don’t handle things like this
All that well anymore.
Promise not to turn back
While you’re walking out the door,
And I couldn’t say goodbye,
And I can’t watch you cry.
I hate that you’ll be different.
Promise you’ll try?
you never handled things like this
All that well in the first place.
I promise not to turn back.
I promise to save face…
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5. |
Love Like Goodbye
04:14
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You will never have any idea how much I miss you.
You will never have any idea the places that I keep you.
You’re in my hands, you’re in my throat
You’re in my eyes,
You have no idea, how could you know,
You will never have any idea how much I love you.
If I drove past the place where we used to sleep,
I wonder what it would do to me?
If I drove past the place where we used to sleep,
I think it’d probably just destroy me.
I wonder if your lights are out?
Does that means you’re at home and asleep?
Or does it mean that you’re out somewhere
Forgetting that you knew me?
I wonder if your lights are out?
Does that mean you’re at home and asleep?
Or does it mean that you’re out somewhere
Forgetting how well you knew me?
You will never have any idea how much I need you.
You will never have any idea how much it hurts to leave you.
But I’m in love with the man you were
If we were younger maybe it might’ve worked.
You will never have any idea how much I love you.
I know sometimes love looks like a goodbye.
I know sometimes medicine looks like time.
If I knocked on your door and said I’m sorry,
I’m pretty sure it would just destroy me.
I wonder if your lights are out?
Does that means you’re at home and asleep?
Or does it mean that you’re out somewhere
Forgetting me?
I wonder if your lights are out?
Does that mean you’re at home and asleep?
Or does it mean that you’re out somewhere
Forgetting how you knew me?
You will never have any idea
How much it hurts to lose you like this,
You’d just never understand it.
You will never know what I meant
When I said I would always love you,
When I said you were heaven sent.
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6. |
Embers
04:24
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Burning, I’m still burning
What a strange power
You have over me
Fire, I’m made from fire
I hate myself
for feeling everything
So deeply
I did it again
I let you in
I swore this wouldn’t happen
You tore me apart again
In a strange room like you always do
Do you ever stop to think about
Who you’re hurting
When the lights have all gone out
In the morning
Embers, I’m only embers
I lost myself to you
And I think you know that too
Burning, I’m still burning
Punishing myself
For all the love I felt
So deeply
So deeply
I did it again
I let you in
I swore this wouldn’t happen
You tore me apart again
In a strange room like you always do
Do you ever stop to think about
Who you’re hurting
When the lights have all gone out
In the morning
and they’ll send me to hell for this
They could never understand
And they would never attempt
I left Heaven for this
All your promises were lies
How could I have been so blind
Oh your blue eyes
Your beautiful lies
Promising lies
And a poisoned promise
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7. |
Almost Heaven
03:56
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There’s a part of me that never had faith in this,
So I made an alter to all that I knew I’d miss,
And now here you are, arriving at the strangest time,
With hair like the sun and water in your eyes.
Standing behind a wall of glass
This almost heaven will never last,
And I can feel your heart break as the moments pass.
This almost heaven will never last.
There’s a part of me that wanted to believe in this,
Despite everything we had against us,
But now you’re killing me
Taking
Me
Down
Slowly.
Your words of love like daggers.
They’re backed by nothing.
How could you let me give myself to you
Knowing all that I’ve been through?
With the bleeding dove inside of me—
All the innocence I know you see—
How could you show me this
Just to leave me hopeless?
Standing behind a wall of glass
This almost heaven will never last,
And I can feel my heart break as the moments pass.
This almost heaven will never last.
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8. |
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You wanted me weak, you wanted me sick
You wanted me dying, it used to feel romantic
I though it meant love when watched me cry
And listened to me sing as tears fell from my eyes
And into your out reaching hands
I collapsed, small and fragile
Coiled in cold fingers
Wrapped in your winter
All these vultures
Circling a dying thing
A different kind of carnage
A different kind of pain
These birds of prey
Feeding from the bleeding
A different kind of carnage
Isn’t it a shame
It will be so easy to turn this water to fire
It will be so easy to wage war on the liar
I used to think it was love, to sacrifice myself to you
I used to think it was love, all the pain I was so addicted to
And out of your reaching hands
I will break and I will stand
Drawing my blade
Drawing a line in the sand
All these vultures
Circling a dying thing
A different kind of carnage
A different kind of pain
These birds of prey
Feeding from the bleeding
A different kind of carnage
A different kind of shame
Ohhhh
A different kind of carnage
A different kind shame
Isn’t it a pity
A different kind of shame
Isn’t it a pity
To see the innocent slain
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9. |
Like the Rain
05:05
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I relive my bleeding years
Every time I hear these songs
And it feels like the river
Is going to bring me right back to you
I relive my quiet grey mornings
Every time I sing these prayers
And it feels like the dreaming
Is going to bring me right back to you
Right back to you
And it’s like the rain
It will always return in faith
And it’s like the rain
I will watch the sky and wait
—And everything will turn grey
And you will roll in like the rain
Coming down on me
Again
I have lost a thousand years
To this unrelenting fear
And it feels like the river
Is going to bring me straight back to you
If I regret leaving forever
And this haunts all the others
What will I do if every River
Always brings me right back to you
And it’s like the rain
It will always come again
And it’s like the rain
In the eye of the storm, I wait
—And everything will be dark
And you will roll in like the rain
Coming down to haunt me
Again
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10. |
From the Ashes
03:18
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6 years in winter, 6 years in the dark,
Letting serpents and phantoms
Tear me apart.
6 years on fire, 6 years at the stake,
Calling myself a Martyr And glorifying my pain.
From the ashes,
Something pure and something new.
All this love I will dedicate to you.
From this day forward,
No one will ever hurt you again.
Screaming "Hallelujah!"
Until the world finally ends.
From the ashes, I am new.
From the ashes, singing "I love you." 6 years of life,
The past robbed me blind, Unable to move forward,
Always looking behind.
Don't lose your life.
Don't make the same mistake.
I never want to see you
Hurt your heart for healing's sake.
From the ashes,
Something pure and something new.
All this love I will dedicate to you.
From this day forward,
No one will ever hurt you again.
Screaming "Hallelujah!"
Until the world finally ends.
From the ashes, I am new.
From the ashes, singing "I love you."
From the ashes,
Something pure and something new.
All this love I'll give to you.
From this day forward,
No one will ever hurt you again.
Screaming "Hallelujah!"
Until the world finally ends.
"Hallelujah!"
"Hallelujah!"
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